People Grow Up Too Fast
For those of you who may not know, I am sixteen years old.
The age of sixteen tends to have many firsts. First loves, first kisses, first license, first job.
I have seen a lot of my peers fall into lines of adulthood. Some would engage in sexual intimacy, or would drive into the night with their friends, having parties and getting lit.
When you see a lot of those you know doing that, and you’re not, you tend to wonder….
Am I missing out on something?
That is the teenage experience.
I feel like I have seen a lot of people I’ve known grow up with my own two eyes. I still keep up with lot of my old classmates from middle school and even elementary school due to social media. It’s crazy to see how much they changed, not only physically but mentally as well. I remember teasing some of my guy friends in middle and elementary school about how tall I was compared to them, (I’ve only grown an inch since then :( ) and now some of them are tall as hell and jacked up. My salutes go to them.
I found out that one of my former classmates is engaged to a girl that I’m kinda acquainted with on social media. He looks and seems so different. He used to be a bit of a troublemaker, but now he seems to be so well put together. He even has a beard now! I’m happy for them though. It seems that he had proposed to her. They seem to be so in love. It’s so adorable. Although being 17 and being engaged may seem crazy to most people, I believe that if you really love someone, anything is possible. Besides, it’s not that uncommon for some muslim teenagers to get engaged so easily, especially if the two people are in love because it’s forbidden to be in a close intimate relationship with another person besides marriage.
Watching all of these experiences unfold made me realize, a lot of time has passed since middle school. People have fallen out with people, people have grown and developed both physically and emotionally. I believe change can be a good thing for some people. It helps you grow.
But it also makes me reminisce about the old times. What happened three or four years ago feels like it happened a month ago. Sometimes I wish everything was the same.
But, do I want things to be the same?
I have grown a lot since those times myself. I was quite irrational and dramatic to the point where my friends would call me a “meme queen” or a “crackhead” because I was always laughing and being funny. I still find those names quite hilarious.
I am a lot more mature now and I’m not as irrational. I’m much more better with deadlines and I am much more humble.
So maybe change isn’t so bad after all.
Graduation is only a year away, and all though I want to GET OUT of high school, I’m going to miss it.
I’m excited (but also really nervous) to see where life takes me.
And I hope it takes me to a great place at the end.
xoxo
nasrina.
